There are so many ideas in my brain to write. Don't know what this would turn into. I may interlink all the brainstorming I've done also, like what I do most of the times.
Things happen when you least expect them. His highness Murphy is mostly responsible for almost all the awkward moments one would have to spend during the course of life. God comes a close second, maybe. (If you believe in him, or her, that is) [Song change - Tu hi re!]
I'm not sure if you'd have experienced this. Not wanting anything to happen from the bottom of your heart would make matters accelerate in the opposite direction. When Murphy's laws come into force here, I wonder who coined the 'Jab tum kisi bhi cheez ko dil se maangoge, to poori kaaynaat koshish karegi ki woh tumhaari hojaaye'!
Which of these is stronger? My desire to learn the violin, the passion to achieve something in life or Murphy's power? Is this all just a realm of fantasy? NO. I really don't think so.
There is a reason behind every single thing that happens in the world. And I, having experienced things first hand, am a true believer of it. I can't remember how back in time I need to travel to relate to what is happening now.
I started singing in 89, sometimes with force, sometimes for fun, but never with that burning passion of wanting to go on stage and get the audience clapping. 2009. I make sure I get my daily dosage of riyaaz without which I feel my day is ruined.
A guy whom I was jealous of for being popular in school, becomes a very good friend, later on and makes life so much easier. Back in the early 90s, I thought that the guy who made me feel insecure would never meet me again in life!
A teacher under whom I was learning music refused to teach me because of internal conflicts, which never made me stop looking for music. Today, I like to say that though I'm technically not even half as sound as it requires me to be, I'm better!
A friend with whom the first (and the last) fight was over sharing boiled potatoes, (a real violent one, I must say) a fact that his mom and I till date, laugh off. A relation going strong for 20 odd years.
Makes me feel old sometimes.
A band mate once said, 'Time flies'. I was jobless and I guffawed at it then. I think of it now. She told me this around 3 years back. How time flew, I don't know. I can still remember sitting outside the 'mini-conference hall' in college, 8 years back, with her and with another guy who's a well known musician today, getting ready for a mini concert then. We barely spoke that day, we speak almost every week now. Who knew that a band would be started and she would be one of the founder members of it?
True. Things happen for a reason. Be it small instances, big fights, small misunderstandings, anything. Its more important for a person to see the brighter things of life. The choice is always what a person makes. The situation can change earth to sky, based on the choice one makes.
An aquaintance turned friend's friend turned closed friend stumped me with his speed and attitude. I was in one more of my phases, not knowing how much sensitive I was being. An year's break affected me badly which is when I pulled myself through. I pulled myself so much through that today I'm able to laugh at myself for having cried earlier. I don't repent doing anything in life, I'm actually an experienced soul. I changed, thanks to him, but we didn't. :) No song that I write gets ahead without his approval. No idea of mine is complete without his bolstering. He's a friend, everyone should have.
When I tell I understand what you are going through, I don't mean to say it just to comfort you. I've hated myself, I've loved myself. I've been arrogant, honest, impatient, ridiculed, praised, afraid, fearless, monophobic, turned over to enjoy every bit of it, in love and depression, sickly sentimental, bossy, almost everything, till now. Its for no other reason that I'm what I'm, now than all these put together. A 'person' who happens to know me since I was a day old and suggested that I've this name to my parents just recently told me that now, even when people tell the most surprising thing, I can manage to remain calm and not show any expression on my face. He'd never thought that it could happen with me. Well, I'm a Scorpio. My face dare not disobey what my brain says! :P
I'd never thought I'd do Chemical Engineering. I'd never expected I'd make so many friends. I'd never expected I'd do anything in music. I'd never thought I'd do postgraduation. I'd never thought I'd work at IISc. I'd never thought that something about everything I see would inspire me in life. I'd never thought I'd ever own a Yamaha synth. I never thought I'd have a desire of learning so many languages and understanding so many cultures.
I'd never thought that a person whom I knew played the guitar. I never realised how well he played. I never expected us to start a band, discuss compositions and make decisions. Of all of it, I really didn't know we'd be jamming across time zones. All these are things that have happened when I least expected them to happen. Its does look like Murphy wins over in most situations, atleast true, till now. Things do happen for a reason, and its nice that they happen when you least expect them to.
