Wednesday 19 September 2012

..of being pious?

Strange. Very strange that I don't remember writing about one of my favourite topics ever, in 3 (4?) years. But yeah, at least I made up my mind to write something now. After probably having many countless discussions, I choose this day, Vinayaka Chaturthi to write about this!

Well, hello to everybody. For starters, wish you a very happy festival, though I'm not sure how to do that. I mean, its not like its new year, or birthday or a marriage day. How can you wish someone to have a happy festival? Does it mean that the other days should not be happy? How lame.

Let me clear a few airs right away. I'm not someone who doesn't believe in God. There are most things that science can explain to me, but for the ones that clearly lie in a limbo, I owe/blame it to God. I'm not being blasphemous here, neither am I extremely pious. I just opine that God is a supreme super entity (if I may, at all) of positive energy. Driven by science, that force should clearly be balanced by something negative. We have been forced to learn and understand that in event of such a confrontation, only the good will win. God knows what'll happen (pun intended).

I am not against worship, idol worship or anything. For me, God of all religions is still the epitome of supremacy. I say a silent prayer if I pass by a temple, mosque or church. That way, I don't care what others have to think.

In the hindu sect, there have been many Gods that have countless temples. Lord Ganesha is worshipped so that every work started goes ahead smoothly, Lord Saraswathi is hailed as the Goddess of learning and arts, Lord Anjaneya the God of strength, etc.

God is hailed as the all pervasive, all knowing entity. It has always occurred in my mind to think how big would this entity be. Would it (or he or she) look down on the universe as a speck of dust? For me, its more of a belief. I believe in the existence of God. In those moments when I really want to build muscle, before going to gym, I pray to Lord Anjaneya :D. No, seriously.

People are seen to pray before exams, before results, before marriage, etc. My doubt is this. God is all pervasive. He knows what you do. He knows of your intimate moments, your private moments, what crap is filled in your head, what you dream, what you are inside when you pretend to be something else, what secret desire you have, what fantasies you have, how often you wish well or wish ill to others, and basically all stuff that you probably won't even talk to your confidante about. What is the whole point in praying and asking for a boon or vardaan?. When I prayed today, like the many times it has occurred in recent times, I thought of apologizing for any sins committed. Then instantly, I realised God knows about it, he knows when I've been sorry for doing anything bad. I didn't want to ask for anything for myself. Because I realised that God knows what I really want, and I'll get it if I deserve to have it.

Is this confusion because of philosophies of life or of growing up or of not having belief? I don't know. Having said all that, I would say again that its not that I won't go to temples. I can't be rebellious that way. Maybe I don't want to be. I pray to God every now and then. What to ask of God in a prayer is the exact time I get lost. I see acts of when a person does something he's committed to with utmost sincerity, getting rewarded; that boon that a few artists are blessed with who can just play around with art, or the way in which science itself unravels its mystery, as all Godly.

Again, maybe its just me. Maybe the high degree of philosophy makes me write all this. It would be interesting to see how people who read this would react.

Let the debate begin.

Peace!