Wish you all a very happy New Year!
Frankly, for me, 2009 was a swift breeze. I can't even remember chronologically the things that have happened. Only now when I look back, I realise that time has flown past.
The great things I can remember would surely be the third anniversary of the band in June, my 2 India trips, one by choice and the other by force, the much talked about (by ourselves, duh!) jamming session of the band after a looong time, the Macbook phenomenon.
It just feels like having done all of this very recently. Only, the recently happens to be more than just 'recent'.
On the personal front, things saw a giant upheaval at times, in my usual steady and strong course of life. I've to be very careful with this in blogs. Blogs are like a public diary, you choose how much you want the other person to read. :P
Nothing much's changed apart from that. Absolutely nothing. Maybe a few perspectives. Maybe.
This new year didn't have all that 'NEW YEAR!!'ish excitement. Not that I'm a party animal and I was deprived of my party this year or anything. Come to think of it, the past few new years have just been calm. The last year was an exception again, I was in the same club I was, a few hours back, but it was fun. or maybe, I thought it was. The year before that, 4 colleagues from IISc had gone to see the disastrous 'Om Shanti Om'. I hadn't even laughed during the course of the movie. It was torture. A brutal one at that. As far as I can recollect the years before that, I'd never 'partied till I dropped' or involved in binge drinking. It would be a quiet night at home, thinking each time the new year went by, that I should have done something exciting for celebrating the New year. The fact that I'd recount to, many years later on this day.
I've had a problem with communicating with a large group of people. There was a phase in my life when I'd feel insecure of myself. Things changed, albeit slowly, during due course of time. I could talk to large groups of people. That was never a problem again. But perspectives are something that rarely change with time. Atleast with mine, they are surely true. Call me rigid, or stubborn or not wanting to change, the truth remains as it is!
[Going a lil' philosophical, I need soothing music now.....
I choose 'En swaasa kaatrae']
Ok, now why the crap about how I was? The fun I thought we'd last time dancing away to the countdown, doesn't seem that fun after all. I'd rather celebrate a quiet New Year's, watching fireworks, (oh no, that would make me think about pollution), hanging out with friends, with lots of people talking non stop, or a romantic getaway, talking about how the year was.
That is the way I'd prefer my new year celebration. A little noise is ok for me. Not a club in godforsaken Beaumont, with racism so rampant, that even music starts sounding repetitive and banal after a while. I was yawning! :D
In fact, after a while, it was depressing to see couples kissing so passionately. The few things I learnt today were,
1. Especially when you don't enjoy dancing that much, make sure you've a good female company to go and dance. Being in love with her is a bonus. :-D
2. The cause of racism is the way we have conducted ourselves by being outrightly desperate for some 'attention'. I could say it in one word - DISGUSTING.
[Song changed to 'Yenna solla pogirai'.. awesome melody]
As much ironical it may sound, I missed my friends big time today. Ironical, coz I've never spent new years with my best friends.
All said and done, I realise that I slightly contradict myself here from what I started initially. When I said new year was just another day this time around, there is no question of missing something that has never happened. Maybe it is just a feeling of wanting to do something, and regretting for not doing it.
This is me, The complication personified. ;-)
Anyways, I know I've not made much sense. The bottom line is, its a new year again - 2010, and I hope that all people get the best and their best out of this year.
A very happy new year to all of you again.
