The imperfection of perfectionism

Meanings, perspectives and philosophies of life are just so personal. Anything one does is always relative to something, or someone, though life would be much more hassle free without comparisons.

God has different meanings to different people. Few people consider idol worship a mere foolishness, few people consider it sacred. Few people say love is God. Few people say there is nothing called love. People in love themselves have different definitions for love. For some, its the meeting whenever the other person wants, without understanding what he/she might be going through, for some, its the connection that works even after days of not talking, for some, its the one hour phone call, every night whispering sweet nothings.

We'd have surely heard of expressions like 'That's the perfect tea I could ever drink', 'She's the perfect friend I could ever have' or worse, 'I'm a perfectionist'! Backstreet Boys even made a song which was 'The perfect fan'. Now, being perfect is not wrong. Its just not attainable. Its simply not realisable. What we've adjusted the word to be in our world is only on a relative basis to another person's actions, or words, simply because there is nothing like it that we've experienced before. In a group of ten people, it would be easy for a seasoned music composer to pick the best - no, the perfect guitarist. By relative, I mean, that what one needs to understand is that there could have been some hidden potential in any person which would have propelled him to this level and given more time and self boosting, surely, higher levels could be attained. Its only that the realisation that has to occur. To whom? I don't know!

Its easy for someone to go to a 99% level. That is the perfect level that the common folk addresses and relates to. But how satisfying is it for that person? No one but the creator is a full 100%. Man can probably go to a close 99.8%, a genius to 99.9%. Everyone cannot be a genius, that forms a different discussion altogether. For a person to go to a 99% level is not very difficult. One could grace that position by immense hard work, or by sheer luck. Once that is reached, and the person wants to elevate his/her position higher, it is like doing a full 100 to go high a notch of 0.8%. It is probably because that is why it is called going close to perfection, and its something that is extremely difficult to attain. People who attain 99.8% in their life wouldn't care if they are known by the world, if they'd be rewarded for what they've done in life. The problem is with the people stuck in the 90 odds. They want to achieve something unheard of, of which the whole world is proud of them. Not quite uncommon, is it? ;)

For me, a composition that I make would be perfect, in terms of the music grammar (Ego or self contradictory? :P). Howmuchever I know in music, it limits me to actually figure out whats wrong, unless told by someone. Making a song is different, it should be able to speak for itself, without any explanations. When that happens, hopefully, in a matter of few years, I'll proudly write another blog that I went up a 0.1% ;)

For a person, who's been praised by all, who's been envied by competition, who's slammed the critics down with his work, it is quite but natural if I say that a feeling of wanting to do more would be brewing up inside his grey matter. Well, that's for people who seek improvement, I don't wanna talk about people who are already PURRFFECT and can't improve. I can only sigh in despair as to what a sad life they have.