Tuesday 5 March 2019

Of existence

Hello 2019. Yeah, well, it's been a little over 60 days, but what the heck.

I was thinking off late that when people say something stopped happening or they stopped working toward something, did they really mean to do it? There is also the oft used - 'Life happened'. Which is a little cliched. Because if you gave up on what you wanted to do to live life, it kinda contradicts the whole thing of living.

Seriously, what is it that happens. Yes, we all get busy, we all tend to get out of touch with friends - definitely wanes from what it would have been earlier - in the good times. But the one thing that I think must stay with a person is the fire that was ignited at some point of time in life. Today, in my current state of mind, I'd strongly assert that age is a number. Earlier, maybe some 4-5 years back, it was an escape route. Once you see things happening to you when the time is right, the term age just dissolves itself into time. Its one thing if it makes one wiser with experience. But then there are the others too, which makes you think why such dumb fucks are still favoured by the universe and why they are still kept alive :P.

Anyways, coming back to the point (if there was any), life does happen. Life throws responsibilities, life throws unanticipated deaths, life throws unplanned pregnancies, life throws uncalled for bankruptcy and so on. This might seem like a veil of unnecessary things just waiting to pounce on you as you grow older and claim that 'there is no time'. But yeah, life can't be as carefree as it was in college. Life has to happen. But how much are you capable of adapting with it. How many of us are willing to take huge risks in career post 30? How many of us are happily single and still have an active profile on dating apps post 35? How many of us have a physique and the stamina that can put a 20 year old to shame, at 40? How many of us can become style icons at 45? How many of us taste success in what we want at 50? Notice the 5 year gap? It wasn't accidental.

Life happens, when you make it happen. By alienating yourself from what you want, by giving into peer or family pressure, by being bogged down by additional responsibilities, by assuming that its too late now is not life. Its existence. No wonder then, that people experience mid life crisis when they are 30. Or is it existential crisis? Wait, should it happen only at 30? Wasn't age a number?

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